Teh Chad

I can tell you right now that I’ve been very much a Litebrite guy. But this/certain people are making me rethink that.

Imagine you are trying to create some art. There are two ways you can do it. You can get a template and paint inside the lines. Or you can begin with a blank canvas.

With the template, you have a pretty good idea of what you will get and what it will take to get there. However, it will never be anything phenomenal or unique.

With a blank canvas, your art will most certainly become something unique! However, you have a good idea of the risk/cost involved if it fails. You do not always have a clear idea of what it will be until you see it happen. There is much more ambiguity in the situation.

I know for a fact that people are afraid of things that they don’t understand.  I’m a professional computer geek.  I work for real estate agents that are scared of adapting into new solutions to run their business.  They are constantly saying things like “Why can’t it run like it has for the past 3489 years????”  Times, they are a changin!  It seems that every couple of days I have to implement something that I’ve never done before.  I have to think about what something CAN do versus what it was built to do.  Can Google help an agent run his business?  Can a Blackberry syncronize with Mozilla Thunderbird’s calendar?  Can Thunderbird schedule showings?

These questions are nebulous without digging into the project.  What about bigger questions?  Would a web development company support 3 people and still be a good investment?  Would it be better to start a temp agency?  Would that be a sound enough investment with the trying times to actually MAKE a living for a staff and provide a semi-passive income for the owner?

Or would you rather go try to find a job and let other people to the painting?

TC

Haha! I’m not actually going emo, but I know you were scared!

I feel that I understand very little about emotions. They are really frustrating to me. They seem to make the highs amazing, but the lows horrid. And then there is a TON of middleware (it’s a computing term).

The bulk of emotion that I have experienced in my short life has been in romance and battle. I’ve never experience anything regarding emotion like I have in love. There is something so contenting about having a lady in my life. I’m not really for “hanging out” unless I’m with my lady. I might hang out with the boys, but we are always doing something; poker usually, sometimes climbing, sometimes having dinner. I’m in the heat of it with them.

When I’m with my lady, so many emotions climb up. I feel the desire to protect. I feel the fulfillment of her happiness. Even though they are ALWAYS cheesy, I enjoy her quirks. I think that emotion runs high even in good ways. I like these times. Whenever someone says “emotions are running high,” they usually mean in a negative or confrontational way. I love it when they run high on a positive note. Wow, I’m floundering. I was trying to talk a bit deeper about emotion and I’m talking about love.

Emotion seems so nebulous to me. It’s part of what makes us human I suppose. It makes our waters deeper. We feel things with a perspective. We look through the lens of the experiences that have made up our lives. We feel certain ways about everything. I like blue and you think colors are dumb. You think the movies are awesome and I haven’t been in a theater in my life. I like the feeling of thin air and other people hate vomiting on the trail to get there. They might even be afraid. They might feel afraid of trying to experience something that I love. A bad experience can cause negative emotions to even make attempts.

I had an amazingly positive experience on my first big hike. Therefore going back makes me feel comfortable and encouraged. Each person likes to feel comfortable and happy in their own way. I know someone who wants so badly to sit at home and make it comfortable for her husband. That makes her feel good and worthwhile. I know another person who has been single his entire life (he’s almost 60) and he is content to drive to his job every day and run a fraternity at a nearby university. That would seem REALLY boring to me in both cases. I would not feel good nor comfortable just building a home. And I can tell you that I would HATE just going to a job and then home.

To focus a bit on one of my previous points of being positive….
I WOULD like to get back to playing poker more. I really miss staring down an opponent after he/she bets into me. I miss the feel of the felt under my fingers. I literally just had my spine tingle at the thought of that velvet war zone. My heart beats a little bit faster to think of looking over at my girl from my seat. She looks up from her book and smiles. I can’t think of too many better moments. That would be awesome.

TC

I feel that wisdom is usually rooted alongside humbleness among other things. One of my friends just made a funnyish quote that I find to be wiser than his 24 years.
“the only smart things i have ever done came from knowing how dumb i am and making the proper adjustments”

TC